“Wake up. You have the practical exam today bro”
I slowly opened my eyes to see sachchidanand trying to wake me up. He is my roommate, a good man. The first thing I did was to search for my mobile. I looked at it and had 13 missed calls. 1 call from my mom, 1 call from Jeffry and 11 calls from my honey, Subhiksha. I thought I am dead. I tried calling her, but no response. Again I tried and again no response. I realized she must be angry. There is a valid reason for that. It’s been 6 months since we entered into the relationship. We speak for hours. Mostly it will be gossips. Everyone loves gossips, don’t they? In class, we sit in the same bench. We talk before, during and after every period. I guess almost every professor knows about our relationship by this time. Some ask us to sit separately while some don’t care. We then go to canteen almost every day, except for days when we both run out of money. I remember once, we didn’t feel like eating in hostel but we didn’t have money too. So we took another friend (a boy) of ours to canteen. You know the mentality about boys when they are with girls. They try to show as if they are the best gentleman in the world. So after ordering things, when I asked how much I have to pay, he said “no no wait I will pay this time”. Thank god as I planned it happened, if not I would have told him that I forgot to bring the money and ATM card doesn’t work (truth is there is no money in my account so atm card won’t work). Anyways he didn’t give me further chance to act. And when our aim was reached we didn’t bother to look at him and we started talking while he was simply watching us. After sometime, I guess he got frustrated and left. Anyways, I and subhiksha used to talk over the phone before we go to sleep. This talk will be different from all our other talks. I like this one more than others. I don’t know why night brings more fun than day. We used to talk like babies but not baby talks. When my mom asks questions like “had dinner? How many dosas? Is that enough for you?” I get angry and scold her “enough mom. I am not a baby. Don’t treat me like a child”. But when subhiksha asks the same questions I happily answer “ya had 4 dosas. Today dosa was not that good da. Sambhar was ok”. Most importantly I also ask the same questions to her. I know it’s crazy. I am so sorry mom. I woke up late today because I was talking to her till 2 and then tried to study a bit. After completing the exams, she was waiting outside for me. I went to her and started the conversation. I know she will be angry.
“Hey sorry da. Extremely sorry. I slept. I was not feeling well” tried the sympathy strategy.
“You don’t look sick. Stop acting” she didn’t bother to look at me but guessed it right. Oops I was caught. Girls have this special power to find out truth easily from men.
I tried hard to explain things but you know it’s hard to convince them. I was going behind her and was apologizing. I feel ashamed now but I just had only one thought at that time. I want her to talk to me as usual. Finally I succeeded over the phone that night.
The exams were over and came the holidays
The Journey to our home
We had booked our tickets in KPN travels (the most expensive private bus). This time it’s only me and her. From the hostel, we started at 6 pm and reached the departure stand by 7 30. Had our dinner till 9 pm in a multi-cuisine expensive restaurant (money doesn’t matter as the priority is to make her feel comfortable. How will money be a matter if its dad’s money and not mine?). In between, we met some of our college mates who teased both of us and created us a situation to fight. Thanks a lot guys for your kind help.
We boarded the bus on time. It’s an 8 hour journey. The bus started exactly at 10 pm. I booked the last 2 seats so that we don’t disturb others and more importantly we don’t get disturbed. I looked to the seats on the other side in our row. It was occupied by another pair. They were giggling, laughing and playing. I turned towards her, slowly and slightly touched her hand.
“What do you want?” she asked in an angry tone.
“Nothing” I was afraid and turned back. The lights were switched off. What is the use of going together without even talking?
I wanted to spend the whole night talking to her about hell lot of things. I didn’t want to waste even a single minute. I made a wrong decision by asking her to take the window seat. She was looking outside than looking at me and talking. It was because of the fight created during dinner.
I prayed silently,
“Oh god, what is this? Please make her speak to me. I will go 101 rounds in your temple”
I heard a voice answering my prayers
“Already you have 1111 rounds pending”. It was not god, but my conscience.
“Sorry god. I will fast and also do rounds when I reach college after holidays. Please, I am your child na” I was begging to god.
After begging, I turned to her side. She was closing the window.
“What happened?” I asked caringly.
“It’s raining” she replied sadly.
I closed my eyes for a moment and thanked god. He answered my prayers so soon. I was happy. I opened my eyes to find her closing her eyes.
“I am feeling sleepy. Good night” she said and started to sleep.
What the hell am I doing?
“Hey what is this? I am coming with you not to sleep with you. I mean not you sleep and I also sleep. (Boy be careful with your words else you will get down and go to hospital instead of going home. But it worked. She opened her eyes and looked me though angrily. My mind gave a small pat and motivated to continue the good job to grab her attention). I want to talk to you”.
“Tell me what you want to talk?”
My reflex action was not that good, so couldn’t able to manage immediately
“First decide what to talk. Let me sleep now. Don’t disturb me. Good night” she said and turned to the window side and started sleeping.
That was harsh. I am not a third party. I am her man. But still I can’t lose my dignity. I didn’t want to. So I turned to the other side. I saw the couples on the other side and grew jealous. The girl was resting on the guy’s chest and he held her around tightly. After few minutes I again turned to her. I noticed she was feeling cold. So I slowly held her hands together with my hands to give some warmth.
“What are you doing?” she turned to my side and asked me politely.
“I am trying to give you warmth. I know you are feeling cold. When you are shivering how can I sleep well?”
“Don’t lie. You make me fall for you with your lies”. After a long time she smiled. Thanks to my friends who came to meet us during the dinner.
“Sorry dear. I didn’t mean anything. They teased me, what can I do. ”
“It’s ok da. I am also sorry. I shouldn have behaved like this” she said and leaned on my shoulder
Tu Meri Adhuri Pyas Pyas, Tu Agayi Mann Ko Ras Ras Aab Tho Thu Aaja Pass Paaaas, ...
My dreams came true. I still remember the day when I proposed to her. I came home and while sleeping I imagined to dance for this song along with her. Now the first stage of that dream, she was leaning on me. I slowly raised my arm and placed around her shoulders to hug and to give some warmth.
She came forward further to rest her head on my chest and I hugged her tight enough that even air cannot enter. I uttered those magical words in her ears
“I love you”
The fragrance from her beautiful free falling hair mesmerized and hypnotized me. I lifted her head slowly and kissed in her forehead. That was my first kiss. It was a reflex action. I didn’t plan to do. The moment I kissed her, she hugged me as tight as possible. I was then drenching her face with loads of kisses. I realized that day, why people kiss when they are in love. It’s because kiss is the purest expression of love. But don’t ask me then how the movie stars kiss on screen. I can’t answer to those questions.
“Will you marry me? You won’t cheat me right? I can’t even imagine a life without you” she said and started crying. I didn’t know what to do. I tried to ease her and it took me sometime along with some promises and some kisses. Oh boy, I have kissed her a lot today. You see, this is one point where men and women differ in nature. Women, don’t accept love easily. They test the patience of men to the core and try to see if he can do anything for her and then only accept love. But once they start the relationship, they pour all their love in the relationship and expect the same from men. However, men are not that expressive. A man becomes more expressive when he finds a girl who he likes first and immediately thinks she is the best match and he proposes her. He remains expressive until he attracts his partner. Then he is back to normal. Both men and women fail to choose the right partner and in most cases with the former having the high probability of committing errors. That is one main reason why the first love never succeeds in many cases. I think the main reason starts from the purpose of life. If we do not think from the materialistic point of view or rather think from the nature point of view, we can get plenty of explanations. You can take any species for that matter, the main purpose of a species is to survive and grow along together to establish their species strongly in the world such that they don’t go extinct. So in most of the species (except honey bees and ants), the main role of the male is to help in populating while females takes care of the young ones in growing and their family and community. That’s the reason I think men often keep thinking about sex while women cares and expects more from men other than sex.
Maybe that’s the reason why she was thinking about marriage after the first rain of kisses while I was thinking about improvising it to a French kiss. It’s not my fault after all (escapism - another tendency of male species especially in male homo-sapiens).
“Please don’t leave me da” she said for ‘n’th time.
I again tried to pacify her. But she again started
“Please you won’t leave mmmmmmm…” without a second thought and even before she finished her sentence, I kissed her in her lips. My first English kiss. I never expected it to happen in my life before marriage. I can taste the mango juice which she had during the dinner, in her lips. I again kissed her. She hugged me to the core and we were in one seat. I wanted to see her face. I imagined she will be blushing and when I lift her face she will feel shy to look at me. I lifted her face slowly. She didn’t want to see me. So with a little bit force and smile on my face I lifted her face to see her reaction. To my horror, she was completely wet with tears. What have I done? I blamed myself for behaving so rude. After a long time I calmed her down. I promised not only to her but also to myself that whatever it takes I will always be with her, for her, by her side always. After all, men also have a heart.
We then talked a lot about our future plans like what we should do after the studies, how we can make our families meet, how we can make our parents accept etc. When we dropped our eyes down to sleep, the lights in the bus were on. I looked at my watch; it was drowned in her sweat. It was 5 45 am. I opened the window to see where we are. We reached our city and the bus will reach on time. This is the disadvantage with private bus. They reach on time. Her parents came to pick her up. So she got down first and I was inside the bus till she left the place.
I reached home to find my mom and dad happy after a long time and waiting eagerly for my arrival. But all my thoughts were with her. I directly went to bed after acknowledging them for few minutes. I closed my eyes only see her beautiful eyes and sweet juicy lips. I could still smell the fragrance of her hair she left on my shirt. Now we will be in the city for 5 days and I can’t wait to see her that long. I have to plan something.
I decided, my next adventure would be My First Outing.
(To be continued)
I slowly opened my eyes to see sachchidanand trying to wake me up. He is my roommate, a good man. The first thing I did was to search for my mobile. I looked at it and had 13 missed calls. 1 call from my mom, 1 call from Jeffry and 11 calls from my honey, Subhiksha. I thought I am dead. I tried calling her, but no response. Again I tried and again no response. I realized she must be angry. There is a valid reason for that. It’s been 6 months since we entered into the relationship. We speak for hours. Mostly it will be gossips. Everyone loves gossips, don’t they? In class, we sit in the same bench. We talk before, during and after every period. I guess almost every professor knows about our relationship by this time. Some ask us to sit separately while some don’t care. We then go to canteen almost every day, except for days when we both run out of money. I remember once, we didn’t feel like eating in hostel but we didn’t have money too. So we took another friend (a boy) of ours to canteen. You know the mentality about boys when they are with girls. They try to show as if they are the best gentleman in the world. So after ordering things, when I asked how much I have to pay, he said “no no wait I will pay this time”. Thank god as I planned it happened, if not I would have told him that I forgot to bring the money and ATM card doesn’t work (truth is there is no money in my account so atm card won’t work). Anyways he didn’t give me further chance to act. And when our aim was reached we didn’t bother to look at him and we started talking while he was simply watching us. After sometime, I guess he got frustrated and left. Anyways, I and subhiksha used to talk over the phone before we go to sleep. This talk will be different from all our other talks. I like this one more than others. I don’t know why night brings more fun than day. We used to talk like babies but not baby talks. When my mom asks questions like “had dinner? How many dosas? Is that enough for you?” I get angry and scold her “enough mom. I am not a baby. Don’t treat me like a child”. But when subhiksha asks the same questions I happily answer “ya had 4 dosas. Today dosa was not that good da. Sambhar was ok”. Most importantly I also ask the same questions to her. I know it’s crazy. I am so sorry mom. I woke up late today because I was talking to her till 2 and then tried to study a bit. After completing the exams, she was waiting outside for me. I went to her and started the conversation. I know she will be angry.
“Hey sorry da. Extremely sorry. I slept. I was not feeling well” tried the sympathy strategy.
“You don’t look sick. Stop acting” she didn’t bother to look at me but guessed it right. Oops I was caught. Girls have this special power to find out truth easily from men.
I tried hard to explain things but you know it’s hard to convince them. I was going behind her and was apologizing. I feel ashamed now but I just had only one thought at that time. I want her to talk to me as usual. Finally I succeeded over the phone that night.
The exams were over and came the holidays
The Journey to our home
We had booked our tickets in KPN travels (the most expensive private bus). This time it’s only me and her. From the hostel, we started at 6 pm and reached the departure stand by 7 30. Had our dinner till 9 pm in a multi-cuisine expensive restaurant (money doesn’t matter as the priority is to make her feel comfortable. How will money be a matter if its dad’s money and not mine?). In between, we met some of our college mates who teased both of us and created us a situation to fight. Thanks a lot guys for your kind help.
We boarded the bus on time. It’s an 8 hour journey. The bus started exactly at 10 pm. I booked the last 2 seats so that we don’t disturb others and more importantly we don’t get disturbed. I looked to the seats on the other side in our row. It was occupied by another pair. They were giggling, laughing and playing. I turned towards her, slowly and slightly touched her hand.
“What do you want?” she asked in an angry tone.
“Nothing” I was afraid and turned back. The lights were switched off. What is the use of going together without even talking?
I wanted to spend the whole night talking to her about hell lot of things. I didn’t want to waste even a single minute. I made a wrong decision by asking her to take the window seat. She was looking outside than looking at me and talking. It was because of the fight created during dinner.
I prayed silently,
“Oh god, what is this? Please make her speak to me. I will go 101 rounds in your temple”
I heard a voice answering my prayers
“Already you have 1111 rounds pending”. It was not god, but my conscience.
“Sorry god. I will fast and also do rounds when I reach college after holidays. Please, I am your child na” I was begging to god.
After begging, I turned to her side. She was closing the window.
“What happened?” I asked caringly.
“It’s raining” she replied sadly.
I closed my eyes for a moment and thanked god. He answered my prayers so soon. I was happy. I opened my eyes to find her closing her eyes.
“I am feeling sleepy. Good night” she said and started to sleep.
What the hell am I doing?
“Hey what is this? I am coming with you not to sleep with you. I mean not you sleep and I also sleep. (Boy be careful with your words else you will get down and go to hospital instead of going home. But it worked. She opened her eyes and looked me though angrily. My mind gave a small pat and motivated to continue the good job to grab her attention). I want to talk to you”.
“Tell me what you want to talk?”
My reflex action was not that good, so couldn’t able to manage immediately
“First decide what to talk. Let me sleep now. Don’t disturb me. Good night” she said and turned to the window side and started sleeping.
That was harsh. I am not a third party. I am her man. But still I can’t lose my dignity. I didn’t want to. So I turned to the other side. I saw the couples on the other side and grew jealous. The girl was resting on the guy’s chest and he held her around tightly. After few minutes I again turned to her. I noticed she was feeling cold. So I slowly held her hands together with my hands to give some warmth.
“What are you doing?” she turned to my side and asked me politely.
“I am trying to give you warmth. I know you are feeling cold. When you are shivering how can I sleep well?”
“Don’t lie. You make me fall for you with your lies”. After a long time she smiled. Thanks to my friends who came to meet us during the dinner.
“Sorry dear. I didn’t mean anything. They teased me, what can I do. ”
“It’s ok da. I am also sorry. I shouldn have behaved like this” she said and leaned on my shoulder
Tu Meri Adhuri Pyas Pyas, Tu Agayi Mann Ko Ras Ras Aab Tho Thu Aaja Pass Paaaas, ...
My dreams came true. I still remember the day when I proposed to her. I came home and while sleeping I imagined to dance for this song along with her. Now the first stage of that dream, she was leaning on me. I slowly raised my arm and placed around her shoulders to hug and to give some warmth.
She came forward further to rest her head on my chest and I hugged her tight enough that even air cannot enter. I uttered those magical words in her ears
“I love you”
The fragrance from her beautiful free falling hair mesmerized and hypnotized me. I lifted her head slowly and kissed in her forehead. That was my first kiss. It was a reflex action. I didn’t plan to do. The moment I kissed her, she hugged me as tight as possible. I was then drenching her face with loads of kisses. I realized that day, why people kiss when they are in love. It’s because kiss is the purest expression of love. But don’t ask me then how the movie stars kiss on screen. I can’t answer to those questions.
“Will you marry me? You won’t cheat me right? I can’t even imagine a life without you” she said and started crying. I didn’t know what to do. I tried to ease her and it took me sometime along with some promises and some kisses. Oh boy, I have kissed her a lot today. You see, this is one point where men and women differ in nature. Women, don’t accept love easily. They test the patience of men to the core and try to see if he can do anything for her and then only accept love. But once they start the relationship, they pour all their love in the relationship and expect the same from men. However, men are not that expressive. A man becomes more expressive when he finds a girl who he likes first and immediately thinks she is the best match and he proposes her. He remains expressive until he attracts his partner. Then he is back to normal. Both men and women fail to choose the right partner and in most cases with the former having the high probability of committing errors. That is one main reason why the first love never succeeds in many cases. I think the main reason starts from the purpose of life. If we do not think from the materialistic point of view or rather think from the nature point of view, we can get plenty of explanations. You can take any species for that matter, the main purpose of a species is to survive and grow along together to establish their species strongly in the world such that they don’t go extinct. So in most of the species (except honey bees and ants), the main role of the male is to help in populating while females takes care of the young ones in growing and their family and community. That’s the reason I think men often keep thinking about sex while women cares and expects more from men other than sex.
Maybe that’s the reason why she was thinking about marriage after the first rain of kisses while I was thinking about improvising it to a French kiss. It’s not my fault after all (escapism - another tendency of male species especially in male homo-sapiens).
“Please don’t leave me da” she said for ‘n’th time.
I again tried to pacify her. But she again started
“Please you won’t leave mmmmmmm…” without a second thought and even before she finished her sentence, I kissed her in her lips. My first English kiss. I never expected it to happen in my life before marriage. I can taste the mango juice which she had during the dinner, in her lips. I again kissed her. She hugged me to the core and we were in one seat. I wanted to see her face. I imagined she will be blushing and when I lift her face she will feel shy to look at me. I lifted her face slowly. She didn’t want to see me. So with a little bit force and smile on my face I lifted her face to see her reaction. To my horror, she was completely wet with tears. What have I done? I blamed myself for behaving so rude. After a long time I calmed her down. I promised not only to her but also to myself that whatever it takes I will always be with her, for her, by her side always. After all, men also have a heart.
We then talked a lot about our future plans like what we should do after the studies, how we can make our families meet, how we can make our parents accept etc. When we dropped our eyes down to sleep, the lights in the bus were on. I looked at my watch; it was drowned in her sweat. It was 5 45 am. I opened the window to see where we are. We reached our city and the bus will reach on time. This is the disadvantage with private bus. They reach on time. Her parents came to pick her up. So she got down first and I was inside the bus till she left the place.
I reached home to find my mom and dad happy after a long time and waiting eagerly for my arrival. But all my thoughts were with her. I directly went to bed after acknowledging them for few minutes. I closed my eyes only see her beautiful eyes and sweet juicy lips. I could still smell the fragrance of her hair she left on my shirt. Now we will be in the city for 5 days and I can’t wait to see her that long. I have to plan something.
I decided, my next adventure would be My First Outing.
(To be continued)
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